Friday, July 20, 2007
i wanna be malay today..
dun wanna talk english too much lah..
i mean, as a malay, i have to be proud of my own religion right?
hari ini, saya berasa amat gembira sekali..entah mengapa, setiap yang berlaku itu bagaikan sesuatu yang manarik walaupun ianya langsung tidak menarik..hmm..cikgu hanita sentiasa menggalakkan anak muridnya supaya menggunakan bahasa melayu baku jadi saya akan mematuhi perintahnya itu..seperti yang kalian tahu tentang saya, saya merupakan seorang murid perempuan yang sangat berdedikasi dan rajin..saya akan menyiapkan apa segala tugas yang telah diberikan..saya juga seorang yang baik hati yang boleh diharap..hehe..oleh sebab itu, ramai orang yang menyayangi saya..maaf, itulah yang ingin say ucapkan kepada anda semua kerana terlalu memuji diri saya ini..haha!im so sorry guys..
it sounds totally stupid sia to praise myself like that..
well, to be honest, i just had nothing bettre to say.
that's why i came up with that crap.
furthermore, tomorrow's racial harmony day..
according to hanita lah..
i'm not so sure bout that..
n i miss him damn a lot sia..
how can he be so super heartless?
it's been 7 days since the day we had the misunderstanding and till now, there's still no bloody reply from him..
darn.
he's a bastard.
no he's not.
yes he is.
i say no he's not lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
frankly speaking, i don't know myself..
i'm all confused right now.. :s
and it's all because of you..
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
i'm all alone now at my school lib..
haha but it's okay..
at least it gives me some time to reflect about my life again..
felt so alone today..
i dunno if i should msg him agn or not..
i mean, what's the point of msging him if he won't reply just because of a freaking misunderstanding we had again..
to be honest, i've lost count how many times we're like this..
not talking and practically ignoring each other..
i'm getting sick of this..
when we first got to know each other, it was so cool..
we would msg each other and talk about loads of stuffs..
some ppl might find our msges lame..
or maybe stupid..
yeah we talk about lame lame stuffs all the time..
but that is what makes me happy to be happy..
the moment my handphone vibrates..
i'll start to smile..
and laugh even if that day is really a bad day for me..
at first, we would msg each other every single day..
every single hour..
every single minute..
every single seconds..
but i dunno what happen now..
he's been ignoring all my msges since last saturday..
what makes my heart ache more is the fact that he didn't even bother to reply..
boo.. :x
Monday, July 16, 2007
hey i'm back..
and so much has happened..
too many things happened that i dun even think that it can fit this space..
i'm tired of my life sia..
sometimes i just wish that i never exist in this world..
i mean, for what??!!!
i still can't figure out the purpose of existing in this world..
it's totally sickening..
today's english lesson had made me reflect on my life..
dawn wong said that sometimes ppl laugh because of fear..
and it set me thinking..
maybe it could be true..
yeah i laugh a lot as you all know..
to me, i laugh because i fing something funny and hilarious..
but i thought about it agn..
maybe i'm just scared to admit that i am indeed scared of what has happened..
all this while, i just deny everything..
i'm really living in denial..
i just seriously hate it when ppl know about my misery.
it sucked.
i'd rather others see me as a happy-go-lucky kid..
always smiling here and there..
k la forget it.
some ppl just won't understand me.
i'm now at siti's house..
adilah n ashiqa are busy doing dunno-what-la to their hair..
they look so super stupid.
n retarded.
and they're laughing like some mad women.
haiz..
i pity siti..
poor she..
hancur kene bully with those two bitches.
bimbo.
lawllll.... :D